Ilya Hiraeth

My real name is Ilyarwen (ill-yar-wen), but I usually just go by my nicknames, which are Ilya (ill-yuh), Illy or Lily. My zodiac sign is Cancer, I'm a INFP-t, and my eyes are actually hazel! I'm part of Gen Z, my birthday is June 30th.I've had a few different names across social media. Qato Ibara, Ilya Skóyaji/Stormheart, and Illeniux Sato.

Likes 🥰My favorite color is purple, my favorite season is autumn, and I love just listening to music for hours. I love coffee and bubble tea. I enjoy building Legos, planning things and napping. Also I think cats, reptiles, dogs, and just about any animal is super cool.

Dislikes 😑I hate winter and summer equally. Loud noises and people tend to scare the shit out of me.

I grew up in an extremely toxic, religious and conservative family. We moved around a lot, until I was 11 years old, but ever since then I've lived in Montana.I was homeschooled, which isn't necessarily terrible, but in my case was a horrible education. I learned more religious propaganda and insane conspiracy theories (or a mix of both) than I did anything useful.Sometime when I was 17, I almost subconsciously began to slowly reject and unlearn all the toxic beliefs that were drilled into my head since birth. Deconstructing hasn't been easy, and I still make some pretty big mistakes. But I've come a long ways from what I used to be.

In January 2022, I came out to my friends as transgender. I've always been a woman, and my pronouns are she/they. I'm a lesbian too. The change was super stressful for the first few months, and figuring out who I am is challenging, but things have gotten easier, and ultimately I'm so much happier than I use to be. Unfortunately, most of my biological family isn't very accepting, so I no longer keep in touch.

I'm a huge nerd, I love so many shows, movies and books. The Lord of the Rings, Arcane: League of Legends, K-Pop Demon Hunters, Avatar: The Last Airbender, She-ra and the Princesses of Power, and Star Wars, just to name a few. I also like to write my own little stories.

Music is an important part of my life, and the music I listen to has shaped me in many ways. I can't get enough of it, original songs, soundtracks, and more. I'm kind of picky though, listening to usually only a handful of songs from any particular artist, but since I like so many genres and artists, it balances out. (Below are some samples.)

• random mix
• cinematic mix
• Jennymusic favs

My favorite video games are NieR:Automata (The anime Nier:Automata Ver1.1a is so good!!!!! I highly recommend it), The Elder Scrolls V: Skyrim, Cyberpunk 2077, The Legend of Zelda: Breath of the Wild, Fortnite, Lethal Company, World Box, and more.I play on Xbox as MornieUtulie834, and sometimes Steam as Illeniux Sato/qashah12.

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Elsa Of Arendelle

I relate to Elsa for many reasons. The most obvious of course would be how her story encourages being who you really are. I'd be lying if I said both movies didn't have a huge impact on my trans realization, among other things.But the thing about her story that I relate to the most, is her isolation. Growing up alone, never leaving the house, and feeling as if you were cursed. Elsa's parents didn't try to pit her against her sister quite like my family did with my brother and I, but they still kept them separated from each other emotionally as well as physically. And then on top it all, she became an orphan. Maybe I am the one who cut ties with parents, but the grief, the feeling of loss, is the same.

Catra

Catra held on for so long to a system that was flawed. This, of course, lead to her making many, many mistakes before she finally rejected the Horde once and for all. That's something she and I have in common.Her mother-figure, Shadow-Weaver, is not unlike mebers of my own family, though admittedly much crueler and more physically abusive, but no more narcissistic or manipulative. Catra's drive to prove herself, to make Shadow-Weaver proud of her, and her desperation to simply be loved as she was, is something so painfully familiar to me.(Also... KITTY!)

A2 / Freesia

Yet another character who is mostly just one of my favorites. Number 2 is an android created by YoRHa to fight the machines, but she and her crew were abandoned by the Bunker, left for dead on their first mission. She was the sole survivor, living for years on her own, fighting against YoRHa and machines alike.If you've played the game, you know the story of YoRHa. The stroy of Nier:Automata is crafted in a very careful and deliberate manner, and the parallels between YoRHa and religious cults are no mistake.

Avatar Korra

I have a few things in common with Korra. Maybe not physique or interest in more physical activities, but we have similar struggles. I've struggled with my temper a lot. Growing up, I was also separated from the rest of the world, had to learn how to make friends at a little older age then normal kids do, and navigate a world that was wildly different than I raised to believe.

Now on to the not so fun side 😅On top of having really bad anxiety and struggling with depression more often than not, I have ADHD and I'm autistic too. I may or may not have DID, but either way, I definitely have at least some alternate personality disorder.This "alter" has a name, Morwen, which you'll see pop up from time to time.

I'm not religious but I'm not exactly atheist either. I'm an ex-evangelical and due to the trauma I experienced in the name of x-tians, I doubt I'll ever adopt an Abrahamic faith again. I'm also a firm supporter of the fact that religion has no place in politics.Other people's beliefs don't bother me (given they don't use their beliefs as an excuse to mistreat others, as many unfortunately do). I have family and friends who are atheist, catholic, islamic, pagan, and I love them all.I have an affinity for Celtic and Greek mythology, as well as a fascination with things like astrology.

I'm a supporter (and member, obviously) of the LGBT+ community, as well as a supporter of Black Lives Matter and the disabled communities. I'm a left-leaning individual, an anti-capitalist, who believes in ACAB, and I support Palestine and many other countries suffering injustice.

Here's where you can usually find me hanging out, feel free to add me! 🫶🖤⛈️

• Discord
• Bluesky
• Xiaohongshu
• Snapchat
• Pinterest
• Duolingo
• TikTok
• Facebook
• Instagram
• Reddit
• Discogs